At my darkest moment...
Instead of some brief smses, you called me and discussed with me regarding the gift and even helped me find pictures and give ideas.. you came at the correct timing and it's as if i found a lighter in the darkness.
Thanks to you that the gift is on the track now. you won't like this but it's from the bottom my heart.
爱死你了！thanks alot!:)
Sunday, 29 January 2012
Tuesday, 24 January 2012
Balancing
Leaving a busy city like Singapore for awhile is certainly enjoyable=)
Went back to Malaysia(father's side) for yearly CNY reunion with relatives and i think Malaysia is very good place for a short get-away especially for Chinese New Year. My family in Malaysia lives in kampong area so every few moments, we will be threatened by loud bangs from neighbors. It's Firecrackers=) and this year, one of my relative bought a type of firecracker which is able to produce about the same quality of the fireworks during national day and it cost around 800 ringgits! From far it looks just like a normal carton box from NTUC but close up, it's like around 12 cylindrical shapes squeezed in the carton. Because it's very expensive, he informed the whole family that he is going to light up now and many of us took out our handphone to video it down and it's either u sacrifice the chance of taking the video or sacrifice your eardrum. It's super ultra loud since we are like 5-10 metres away from the carton. It's the first time i ever seen such nice firework within few metres away and i bet many will hope to watch it with their love ones=) other than the nice fireworks, we will always play black jack and i will always lose money. yes we gamble since it's only 10cents or 20cents ringgit furthermore it's once a year and no one in the family is playing to win. we are playing to pass time=)
I feel that living in Malaysia is abit too relaxing and too carefree and Singapore is too fast(pace) and stressful. worries starts coming back once the boat touches changi village. Tomorrow i will be getting back my programming written test which is 30% of the overall grade and i obviously never do well. the report due next tuesday and so many things. it's just like fireworks. You are happily enjoying the nice fireworks and for the next moment, everything goes back to normal as if nothing has happened before. Life's is always like that. when there is happy moment, there will be depressing moment.It's certainly a good invention for video cameras to record down happy moments in our life but sad to say, nothing can record our 心灵上的喜悦.whatever captured by the videocams are merely emotionless moving images. what made those images memorable is our heart=)
It will be nice to visit a slower-pace country like Malaysia once every few months to get a balance of life. if you are good, you can even get the same balance in Singapore. It's our heart=)
Went back to Malaysia(father's side) for yearly CNY reunion with relatives and i think Malaysia is very good place for a short get-away especially for Chinese New Year. My family in Malaysia lives in kampong area so every few moments, we will be threatened by loud bangs from neighbors. It's Firecrackers=) and this year, one of my relative bought a type of firecracker which is able to produce about the same quality of the fireworks during national day and it cost around 800 ringgits! From far it looks just like a normal carton box from NTUC but close up, it's like around 12 cylindrical shapes squeezed in the carton. Because it's very expensive, he informed the whole family that he is going to light up now and many of us took out our handphone to video it down and it's either u sacrifice the chance of taking the video or sacrifice your eardrum. It's super ultra loud since we are like 5-10 metres away from the carton. It's the first time i ever seen such nice firework within few metres away and i bet many will hope to watch it with their love ones=) other than the nice fireworks, we will always play black jack and i will always lose money. yes we gamble since it's only 10cents or 20cents ringgit furthermore it's once a year and no one in the family is playing to win. we are playing to pass time=)
I feel that living in Malaysia is abit too relaxing and too carefree and Singapore is too fast(pace) and stressful. worries starts coming back once the boat touches changi village. Tomorrow i will be getting back my programming written test which is 30% of the overall grade and i obviously never do well. the report due next tuesday and so many things. it's just like fireworks. You are happily enjoying the nice fireworks and for the next moment, everything goes back to normal as if nothing has happened before. Life's is always like that. when there is happy moment, there will be depressing moment.It's certainly a good invention for video cameras to record down happy moments in our life but sad to say, nothing can record our 心灵上的喜悦.whatever captured by the videocams are merely emotionless moving images. what made those images memorable is our heart=)
It will be nice to visit a slower-pace country like Malaysia once every few months to get a balance of life. if you are good, you can even get the same balance in Singapore. It's our heart=)
Wednesday, 18 January 2012
break thru!
these few days have been sms-ing her and i think we are good now.. it's totally different from last time when we are not able to talk.. now we are chatting argue-ing be it face to face or via smses=)
silly her for thinking that she is disturbing me.. how can i leave her alone? and i think from these few days of sms-ing, i noticed we are able to express ourselves more to one another.. unlike last time, keeping things to ourselves and hiding parts of us as though we are nobody to one another.
i like where we are now. sharing moments and moments of our life be it good or bad.
Sometimes i really get very contented from her small actions. i guessed i'm comparing the 'her' from last time and now. i don't deny last time she unintentionally made my life quite 痛苦 but i must say, those 痛苦 last time have made me want to 珍惜 her even more now. anything she did more than last time is like a surprise to me=) we are not couple and even if it stays like this forever, i'm already very contented.
Of cos i'm more than happy to be one=)
silly her for thinking that she is disturbing me.. how can i leave her alone? and i think from these few days of sms-ing, i noticed we are able to express ourselves more to one another.. unlike last time, keeping things to ourselves and hiding parts of us as though we are nobody to one another.
i like where we are now. sharing moments and moments of our life be it good or bad.
Sometimes i really get very contented from her small actions. i guessed i'm comparing the 'her' from last time and now. i don't deny last time she unintentionally made my life quite 痛苦 but i must say, those 痛苦 last time have made me want to 珍惜 her even more now. anything she did more than last time is like a surprise to me=) we are not couple and even if it stays like this forever, i'm already very contented.
Of cos i'm more than happy to be one=)
Saturday, 14 January 2012
white moon or blue moon?
5th Jan 2012, she was at my house to do chinese new year card for our fellow temple mates..
that day was memorable to me because we were chatting while doing the cards and we never chat more than that day before=)
Something worth commenting about is i'm totally a dumb because i'm not sure of something and i keep asking the same question which doesn't show me anywhere near. It's either she have changed throughout these years without her noticing herself or the blue moon is in my house.
She stayed over my house in my sis's room because we noticed that we cannot finish much cards therefore, it's a last minute thing so she need to go home early in the morning to get changed and go to a workshop which i also need to attend. Her house is just nearby the place the workshop taking place..
Initially, i thought we are waking up the different timing as she needs to go home first but when i asked her what time she is waking up, she was saying as though we are waking up the same time (*infer* i'm going to her house the next morning together with her?). i asked her atleast 3 time to reconfirm but she never give me any more hints. In the end, i followed her to her house naturally..
I guessed it's something she would do to any friends but i'm just happy atleast she is treating me as her normal friend.. Unlike last time, we are able to chat and argue face to face now=)
whatever it is, i shouldn't be thinking of chances now.. I've missed mine..
Tuesday, 10 January 2012
无常
life is an example of 无常. we don't know when life ends..
It's very scary in a way that human don't see it coming or i should say nobody is able to see it coming and prevent it that's why it's call 无常-无（不是）常（平常）(abnormal)。
once heard of the life span of a human being. . make a guess, how long is the life span of a human being?
if you are thinking of the number of years, you are neither right nor wrong=) i heard of an answer which i personally think it's one of the most suitable answer which is “一呼一吸之间”。 a human life span solely depends on the breath.. which shows why it is call 无常 because no one can assure whether the very next breath u breathe out is your last breath=)
why do i bother to post about it when it's something human can't control? because i just experience 无常 and i think it's very disturbing.. my SIM CARD suddenly spoiled when i'm about to reply a sms and the thing is it's working the whole day until then.. unable to receive calls and smses and forward calls and smses is the worst.. it's like nobody can contact you as if you are being quarantined until replacement of SIM CARD.. life's like that.. it's always unpredictable=)
It's very scary in a way that human don't see it coming or i should say nobody is able to see it coming and prevent it that's why it's call 无常-无（不是）常（平常）(abnormal)。
once heard of the life span of a human being. . make a guess, how long is the life span of a human being?
if you are thinking of the number of years, you are neither right nor wrong=) i heard of an answer which i personally think it's one of the most suitable answer which is “一呼一吸之间”。 a human life span solely depends on the breath.. which shows why it is call 无常 because no one can assure whether the very next breath u breathe out is your last breath=)
why do i bother to post about it when it's something human can't control? because i just experience 无常 and i think it's very disturbing.. my SIM CARD suddenly spoiled when i'm about to reply a sms and the thing is it's working the whole day until then.. unable to receive calls and smses and forward calls and smses is the worst.. it's like nobody can contact you as if you are being quarantined until replacement of SIM CARD.. life's like that.. it's always unpredictable=)
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