特别的你。

我一直以来都知道你不可能接受我。我已经没有渴望什么了。我只知道我不要有任何的遗憾所以一厢情愿的付出。当回亿时，就不会有任何的遗憾因为我知道我已经向我喜欢的女孩表白也表示了。我不知道这是爱情或习惯。我只知道有你在身旁的感觉依然根每个人的感觉不一样。一种不能解释的喜悦=）当看你写给我的那些字依然会有沉重的感觉。仿佛在我的脑海里已经猜到你会写给我的内容。 徒劳无获？ 哈哈。。。 一开始都是一厢情愿所以没有想过要有什么获。只知道能为你付出就够了。我真的不知道为什么我会那么的深情。算我笨好了。。

Out of my league

she always have some sort of sensor-like-system which can detect if guys around her want to get close to her, the system will activate and she will avoid that guy. recently, i think i got caught by the system by smsing, calling, showing more concern towards her and the good thing is, she was being frank to me by telling me that she was avoiding me which i'm happy about it. After so many years of observations, i noticed that 我不配 or i should say 我没有资格. she is too good for me. Abit sad to say, thinking about her circle of friends which easily have better quality guys who are also going after her, i sort of given up hope but it doesn't change my heart, i still have that strong feelings towards her.
i noticed i'm treating her more like a bonus which makes me want to treasure her more. i starts to get contented just by receiving her sms. The future outcome is rather trivial matter to me now. not being negative but i still cannot visualize her by my side which means i don't have a dream which also means that i will never achieve it. she is out of my league.
ps: one small and tiny, fill vasty heart to the brim.