she always have some sort of sensor-like-system which can detect if guys around her want to get close to her, the system will activate and she will avoid that guy. recently, i think i got caught by the system by smsing, calling, showing more concern towards her and the good thing is, she was being frank to me by telling me that she was avoiding me which i'm happy about it. After so many years of observations, i noticed that 我不配 or i should say 我没有资格. she is too good for me. Abit sad to say, thinking about her circle of friends which easily have better quality guys who are also going after her, i sort of given up hope but it doesn't change my heart, i still have that strong feelings towards her.
i noticed i'm treating her more like a bonus which makes me want to treasure her more. i starts to get contented just by receiving her sms. The future outcome is rather trivial matter to me now. not being negative but i still cannot visualize her by my side which means i don't have a dream which also means that i will never achieve it. she is out of my league.
ps: one small and tiny, fill vasty heart to the brim.
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