痴心绝对

25th december 2011, we have a small christmas celebration and it's at her house=)

reached her house with breakfast take away from my mother's stall at 9am. after 1-2 hours of preparations, decorations, i went to eat my breakfast at the table with eunice and guess what, when i'm trying to pull out the wooden chopsticks from the wrapper, my left index finger actually got pricked by a sharp splint from the chopstick! ever since i stopped working as display artist, i never got something something poke thru my finger therefore abit shocked and sharp pain.. the best part is she actually wanted to help me to pick out the splint.. i was abit shocked at first and refused to let her pick out for me because she always try to avoid giving me false information. but after she convinced me saying i'm unable to pick out myself, i surrender my finger to her.. that definitely made my day=)

To people out there: You all might think it's something that a caring person will do to anyone and i do think so too. i suppose she will help anyone to pick out the splint if anyone got it into his or her finger. i know it very well but to me, it's once in a blue moon=) she stated very clearly almost every time when i confessed to her that we are very different and we cant be together and every time, these words doesn't seems to register into my brain.
i suppose my love for her won the battle against those painful words she said to me=)
At some point of time, i'm feeling very tired.. it's something like knowing u already failed the end of year examination yet still re-doing the same paper over and over again..

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会，
我还傻傻等等到奇迹出现的那一天。

i'm clueless about who is in her mind but i'm probably not the one=)
i know.. but i can't help it but to 默默的守候。